feeling super extremely lost, upset and emo now.
nothing happened on me, but i just couldnt stop myself from being upset and pain when jade gave me the link of clifton's gf's blog..remember dear told me clifton was a real nice guy(he's baby's tekong mate), and i felt sad. but after looking at her blog, i felt even upset than before, i felt lost, though thing doesnt happen on me which i never want it to happen on me definitely, but i can really feel the pain, the misery, the sadness. I couldnt stop crying, i couldnt stop emo-ing, and i really couldnt accept the fact that life is so vulnerable. Gone means gone and it can never come back again, and this is how sad to be a human, to face all the "sheng li si bie". I never like to be human, nor i like to be an animal. I just don't want to appear in any of the world, i don't want to exist.
i pray hard, god, please let her be happier. I hate to see sadness in people's life.
baby i cherish you more than ever, and of course to all my love ones..